Often we are faced with a decision to make. I don’t believe that one actually understands the amount of decisions that we are faced with everyday. Everything we encounter is a decision.
So, why do we make the decision to move forward with our life such a huge “earth shattering” decision? We often say “should I leave or stay in this relationship/job/home situation (the list goes on and on here)?” When in reality, there is no possible way to not make a decision…because not making a decision IS indeed making a decision.
One thing I struggle with is the “if I make the wrong decision, will this set me off the ‘path’ I’m supposed to be on?” Well, I’ve been thinking about this so-called “path”…Is this path ONLY the straight and narrow with one entrance and one exit ramp? Or is this “path” an expressway with a plethora of entrance and exit ramps stretching as far as the eye can see? I’ve decided that I’ll choose the latter.
I’ve often tried to make the “right” decision. Well in meditating and praying and just being quiet to observe myself, I’ve decided that no matter what “path” I take, I’m going to arrive at my final destination. I just need to be sure that the ride is comfortable for ME. Follow me if you will….I’m a Sooner Alum, so it’s OU/TX weekend. I’ve called up my friends from all over the US and said “Let’s meet up for the OU/TX game.” We all book our flights respectively. Now I could take my flight from OK to TX OR I could take a flight from OK to CA to GA and then land in TX to accommodate one of my friends who says she doesn’t want to travel alone. Would the destination be the same? Yes, I’d be in TX for OU/TX. Is that comfortable to me? While I love being there for my friends and will usually help them, that is NOT comfortable at all. Do you know how long I’d be on a plane? So I’ve decided I can spend my life accommodating others and go out of my way OR I can travel to my own itinerary in my life.
My journey is just that…MY journey. When my time comes to face God, I’ll have to give an account of it. How can I explain my journey if I’ve lived it as others requested (or flat out told in some cases) me to do? I can’t. It’s like having someone interpret your words/actions/thoughts/deeds…it always falls short. Only the creator can seamlessly articulate what the masterpiece is. Yes, we all have a theory….but we really are just spouting off at the mouth.
Now, the BIG question…am I prepared for this journey? Am I ready for the consequences. There are times I say “YES! Bring it on…” Then there are times I say, “Can this wait until the 2nd Tuesday of next week?” Either way, I have to live it and answer for it.
So as far as right now….my decisions will be just that….MY decisions.
Many Blessings…
Pretty Platinum Wings
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